Tomorrow I will be 39 weeks pregnant and our baby girl is holding tight to her warm, safe haven. Jason was one week early, Jocelyn two weeks and David was born on his due date. I have been having the odd contraction every day but only two days have I thought that something was actually going to happen. Wednesday last week and last night.
I spent all day cleaning the house and doing laundry. I wanted to have the house in order so that when the midwives come my house looks orderly and everything is within reach. By the time I put David to bed I was exhausted and my body ached. I sat on the couch and finished watching Narnia with Jason, Jocelyn and Chuck. After the movie the kids went to bed and Chuck massaged my back. I was feeling a lot of pressure and was sure that it was happening, the baby was coming. I got the video camera together, made sure we had a blank tape, got the fresh sheets and the plastic and jumped into the bath to read about laboring positions. I was ready.
The window was open and I could smell the clean air and what smelled faintly of rain. I decided I wanted to go on a walk with Chuck before the baby came. Our last moment outside in the fresh air, looking at the neighborhood and enjoying where we live. Chuck thought I was crazy because it was now pitch back outside and it was 11:00 at night but he didn’t want to argue with a pregnant lady. We held hands and walked slowly past our neighbors quiet and dark homes and looked at their front yards, planning what we want to do with our house once we have a front yard.
I prayed that the baby would come into the world safely and that the older kids would enjoy the experience and that they would feel comfortable. Chuck prayed that the baby wouldn’t come tonight. I went to bed certain that I would be woken up to bring this child into the world.
It didn’t happen.
I’m awake now, still exhausted, emotional and feeling like crying. David got into a bag of grout and smeared it all over his arms and face, he broke off a piece of the back door which I promptly and thankfully could fix and then someone came to my door.
I love company. I really do but right now I’m huge and gross and I’m morally opposed to bras. My belly is so big that it pushes my bra up and makes it uncomfortable to wear. It hurts, so unless it’s Sunday and I am going to church I’m walking around in my husband’s sweats, an old t-shirt of his and no bra. This makes me feel less than beautiful but definitely comfortable, except for when someone knocks on my door to see how I’m doing and to bring me muffins. I love gifts but I hate looking disgusting and having people in my home when it looks like little elves ran through and destroyed everything.
I need to get my house clean. I need to get dressed. I need to take care of my kids and I need to have this baby.
Not necessarily in that order.
Hey Jenny, hang in there you are almost done!
I know how you feel though I walk around in sweats, Robby’s t-shirts, and no bra and I am only 18 weeks pregnant no where near 39 weeks!!
Try to enjoy this part of your pregnancy no matter the discomfort because I know one day you will probably miss being pregnant!
Love ya April
I can’t imagine missing being pregnant! I guess pregnancy is a lot easier for some women.
If you feel up to it just try to keep busy. I loved my friends that would invite me and my kids over and entertain us.
Good luck!
hi,
just wanted to say good luck with having your baby! hope it goes really well! Im 36 weeks pregnant and cant imagine being pregnant for four more weeks. trying to enjoy the peace and quiet but to be honest, im just sitting her bored waiting!! hehe
emma x
When you’re 39 weeks pregnant and your house and kids are perfectly clean, and you’re dressed perfectly… you’re weird! You don’t want people to think that now do you?!
Hang in there, she probably won’t stay in there forever!
Jude
I wish you all the best in the coming days! We had a trip to the hospital recently for my pregnancy (I am almost 30 weeks now) and I have a new appreciation for labor and delivery. Since I am already sitting around the house bored and waiting I can only imagine the anticipation you are feeling right now with such a short time left.
Best of luck, stay strong my friend. You are a wonderful Mother and will be just as amazing with number 4.
Love you guys!
Heather
i’ve got nothing but empathy. i’m 39 weeks as well, and we’ve been in “any minute now” mode for awhile now. i am so sick of trying to keep everything ready–fridge stocked, house semi-clean, etc.–only to end up exhausted and with no baby–again. i have an annoying habit of having on and off contractions for about six weeks prior, and there have been a couple times in the last week when i really thought it was going to happen. i guess i shouldn’t complain too much, since all this preamble makes for quick labors in my experience…
but–the babies will come out! and probably sooner rather than later. i’m sending you wishes for a beautiful birth. can’t wait to see that little girl!
hannah