I started writing again partly because I remembered how supportive it was to blog while I was dealing with the postpartum depression and I knew I was feeling depressed again and needed help.
I haven’t written in the past couple of days because I’m feeling better. It’s work but I am feeling better but every time I start writing my words come out in sad sentences that sound like they’re barely trying to keep up the veil of competence. I would delete the posts before they ever got published because I knew that you are all smart enough to tell that I’m either functioning on half of my brain capacity or I’m struggling.
I’m better but I’m still taking things day by day and my kids have been amazing. Jason and Jocelyn take care of David in the morning and make sure they all eat breakfast and play until I wake up to the sounds of cereal being poured, milk hitting the bowls and David squealing, “mine, mine.”
It’s not perfect but hearing them in the morning makes it easier to get up and get moving because I know that they’re being brave and helping out of their love for their mother. The least I can do is use that love to get me through this pregnancy.
I am sorry to hear that you are having a hard time. For the first time I am suffering from PPD and it is hard to explain some days how you feel. It is wonderful to hear that your children are being so helpful. Take care of yourself.
Your kids sounds awesome and caring. Hang in there and feel better.
Well i dont know about any of your other dedicated readers but I’m concerned! The blog queen no more?! Your last post one of despair! I keep checking for the ‘i am doing better’ post or the ‘cheesecake revival post’… How are you? How is the belly? I am growing away too and am quite weepy … hope happiness has overwhelmed you and that is your reason for less blogging. So many questions.. are you in your new place? etc…
Now that you have moved, You need to post pictures. Actually you must post pictures.
Hi Jen,
I’ve sure missed your blogging! I check back every once in a while to see if there has been an update, to see how your pregnancy is going, how you are liking your new home, etc. I hope things are going well for you and that you might find the time to write again – miss your insights!
Many blessings…
…with the date being what it is, I can hardly leave without wishing you and your readers Happy Valentine’s Day!!! Have a nice one -